August 6, 2015


Hearts in San Francisco - Union Square

It's funny how memories sneak up on you. This photo above was a rare moment in Union Square. Barely a soul in the normally bustling area. I was leaving the doctor's office and took a quick snap with my iPhone 3G. You can tell due to the blurry focus of the photo. It's a moment in time I recall so vividly despite how short and seemingly banal the moment was.

I came across the photo as I was perusing old photos on my computer. Loads of them. Mostly unorganized. I kept thinking how I meant to get them into proper folders so I could sort through them with ease. Suddenly, I gasped, "where are half of the 2013 photos?" To my horror, about half of the photos from my 2013 year were gone. Poof. Missing. Just like that. I have no idea where the photos went. They were on a separate hard drive. Did a folder somehow just get deleted? I can barely recall what photos are missing. Several outfit posts, sure. But, those don't break my heart as much as the personal photos I won't get back. Heartbroken really isn't enough to describe the sadness I feel. But, there is nothing I can do about it. They are just gone.

This incident led me to think about my past and present. Since B has been in my life, I've snapped a photo of him daily. He changes every single day. It's hardly detectable when I see him everyday, but when I scroll through my photos, I am overwhelmed at how much he has changed...and me along with him. Change is happening everyday of my life. Three months into motherhood and I feel like a different person. The person I was in 2013 with half of the year in photos 
missing is not the same person I am now in 2015. It's all sounds so symbolic doesn't it?

I may not have all memories saved through photos, but that doesn't make the experiences any less special. Words will have to paint a vivid picture of the past. When Brandon is old enough, I can tell him all about certain adventures and ideals I had. Perhaps he can carry through what I couldn't.

I bring all this up now as I'm feeling quite nostalgic as of late. I see so much potential with Brandon and his future and I become overwhelmed with how much anticipation I have for him. The excitement I once felt when I was a kid - knowing there were many adventures in my future - is something he'll feel when he's old enough. I only hope to instill in him guidelines that he can refer to in order to make the right choices for his life. 

I knew becoming a parent would change me but I never realized how much it could change my outlook on life and the different perspective I have on things. Life is bigger than me and my everyday worries. Life is short. Although I mourn the loss of the past (photos), I have so many more memories to make. And maybe I'll capture those memories digitally, but if I don't then that's OK, too.


  1. The loss of photos is very heartbreaking. Especially when we often don't bother to print out our memories in hard copy anymore. I empathize with you having lost all of my travel photos twice, once when my bags were stolen years ago when travelling through Europe for months, and then again with the changing of computers I lost all of my England/Spain photos. As we age photos help us to remember the moments that evade us.

    Keeping a photo a day of your baby is going to be wonderful for him to see when he gets older. I made scrapbooks for my nieces almost every year and they adore them.


  2. I can't imagine losing a bunch of photos like that. Photos are my life!

    Connie | Sponsored by Coffee | Etsy

  3. Lovely post! I love the heart pic :)

  4. Aww I miss this view of SF! It really is a rare moment when Union Square is empty!

    Chelsea | Ginger Side of Life

  5. I love this picture! I just moved here and am so excited!
    Melanie @

  6. hey nancy! so sorry you lost some of your pictures. that's horrible. maybe your phone carrier can solve that mystery. you never know! children grow so quickly. it's a small change everyday. enjoy every minute of it.

  7. Nancy, Ia more that shot! Photos ( whether digit on on paper, a wonderful thing to jog the memory and to ensure a piece of emery lives on. Love this sentimental post!
    xx, Elle

  8. That's the great thing about snapping photos and having our phones as easy access to documenting our adventures. I love looking back on old photos and revisiting those happy memories that are associated with. Just looking at your photo of Union Square alone made me think back on my trip there with my family a few years ago. :)

    be the plebeian

  9. That is such a bummer about losing your photos! I think I would have a melt down and start crying. lol.

  10. I am so sorry that you lost some of your photos.

  11. I'm so sorry you lost your photos! That is such an upsetting feeling! Hopefully they're just in a spot you didn't think to look on your computer!


  12. Great post. Hope all the best for you and Brandon!

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  14. Beautiful heart!! I don't think I've seen this when I was there long time ago. Time to revisit!!
    Have a good day. Xoxo

  15. I feel your pain. It's so frustrating when things get accidentally lost or deleted. >.< But yes, that doesn't make the memory any less special. :)

    <3 Trou
    The Peculiar Trouth


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