Suede jacket: Madewell, T-shirt: Vintage, Harem pants: Nike, Sandals: H&M, Accessories: Karen Walker sunglasses, Kris Nations California state necklace, Lionette bracelet
I saw my friend the other day and he said, "it looks like you have a basketball under your shirt!" I hadn't even noticed my belly shape but I totally laughed at the thought.
His comment did make me think of how far I've come from the early days of finding out I was pregnant. Everyday, I'm reminded of how close my due date is (mid-May!) and everyday, I get a bit more anxious, nervous, excited and scared. I'm a ball of emotions (no pun intended) and I am experiencing a grieving period with my "old life." Making last-minute plans with friends, watching TV at odd hours of the night, sleeping in...all the little things that I took for granted when it was just the husband and me hanging out.
But, what I might "lose" in independence I know I'll gain in other areas. I'm not sure what this might feel like but based on all the stories I've read and heard over the months, there's an indescribable love and fulfillment that comes with motherhood. I won't ever stop worrying or stop over-thinking (it's my nature and I'm sure it'll intensify with a child) but, I can take things one day at a time and enjoy each moment. That's something I've always struggled to reconcile being such a planner in life. As my friend wisely reminded me, "there is a time for everything." Just enjoy the ride.